Wednesday, December 28, 2011

bye bye 2011



Assalamualaikum, annionghasayo :)
Pejam celik 2011 lagi 2hari nak habis. kemain lincah masa berlalu. 2011 bakal tinggalkan aku dengan macammacam cerita. suka. duka. but the most affecting theme for me this year is cinta. Cinta sejati. acah acah. hehs. So, deciding to leave all the memories here will keep reminds me about the past although smiling foolishly when thinking of it. Learning from the past, that's how it should be. Kalau dulu gua baca something yg annoying so much pasal dia, gua menjerit sorangsorang kat bilik macam org gila. haha. but now wat lek wat cool senyum sajo :) Urusan dia dengan Tuhan, biarlah. Ayat yg aku tak pernah lupa,          Cuba awk dongak pandang bntang bntang kt langit tu..sy pinjamkan bintg2, sbgai balasan sy janji dengan Tuhan sy akan cintakan awak smpai bilabila.. 2kali aku dengar ayat ni n aku marah dia buat janji tu. but still endingnya macam ni. cool kan ? hehs. and everything yg aku post kat sini aku nak simpan buat memori silam. bila dah tua nanti baca balik benda macam ni pastu senyum sorang. ceh. haha. So, the incoming 2012 will be the new love story for me. She is Ros Qistina Rosdi :) till next..


·         Oke.sabar lah ez..kau kne egt y d*** hnye mse silam kau je..dy mgkin bkn y t’baek tuk kau..lpekn dy,lpekn jnji n sumpah dy..slg kau ta cbe utk lpe sume tu slg tu lah kau akn rase cm ny..
Zie, 5:46:31pm, 13/12/2011

·         Asal kau bg tau dy yg aku nak kua ? Tlg la jgn btau dy ape2..klw kau kwn aku,jgn kau ade at sblh dy
Zie, 01:18:25pm, 3/12/2011

·         I miss you so much,my husband..i love you till end..and only you in my heart..nyte :’)
AN, 09:33:50pm, 30/11/2011

·         Japg by cmpak je rbot nh at besi buruk. :p meh peluk. :D rndu..
AN, 08:25:03pm, 28/11/2011

·         Bring….boring….td ibu call,ibu at Cameron tnye na order ape..by order strawbry dgn jgung..mknan wajib at sne ! Suke sgt by..
AN, 05:04:49pm, 28/11/2011

·         By  perlukan b..
AN, 04:48:36pm, 28/11/2011

·         Okay :) by na peluk b smpai lekat hingus at bju b..Nak pgg dua2 pp b..
AN, 04:57:39pm, 28/11/2011

·         Dah.by tkya risau k..jari brut u nanti,lg smgat nk tmpal bcor tu taw.ha.jari yg lmbut n penyayang..tak mcm jari ni..kasar,ego tp still penyayang..(tknak kalah :p)
To AN, 04:43:27pm, 28/11/2011

·         :) selagi jari ni ada,bnyak mana bocor tu pn,dia tetap nak tmpal..dan bila jari nh dh tkde,b yakin..bocor tu tkkn lama..sbb jari lain akn tmpal bocor tu..
To AN, 04:40:16pm, 28/11/2011

·         Bocor lg ble jari tu dah tade..
AN, 04:38:23pm, 28/11/2011

·         Hm? B tampal pkai ibu jari,kanan kiri,kesat pipi..agk2 bocor lg syg?
To AN, 04:36:03pm, 28/11/2011

·         :) rindu.. Tutop mate tp mate bcor..
AN, 04:36:06pm, 28/11/2011


·         By mimpikan fahmi mlm td..fahmi dtg slamatkan by..hantar by tmpt slamat..fahmi pgg tgn by..
AN, 09:51:35pm, 28/11/2011

·         :) dan jgn jadikan tempoh masa tu jd pnjang. Sbb sy benci mnunggu. Awk taw kan? Then tetapkan niat awk. Tetapkn niat awk tntang apa yg ptot awk buat utk sq, n jd matang. Pegang niat tu,dan balik pd sy..
To AN, 05:03:18am, 28/11/2011

·         Kalau itu kptsan awk,sy tuntut. Sy tuntut awk cari sy lepas smuanya brakhir..kotakan smua janji awk,dan sy akn tggu masa tu. Tak pyh brdalih lagi,jz buat apa yg ptut awk buat, dan cari sy lepas tu. Bole ?
To AN, 04:57:01am, 28/11/2011

·         Sy ta kan bina tapak yg kekal dgn Muhammad i****..sbb sy akn tinggalkan dia..dan sy taktahu arah sy lepas tu..dan, sy ta kan blik at awk..bia la sume nh tamat..bia mase yg tentukan..
AN, 04:54:44am, 28/11/2011

·         Dan kukuhkan kaki awk,dgn sq, yg awk dah sedia bina..awk lg mampu jd ad***a yg lg kuat..
To AN, 04:49:55am, 28/11/2011

·         Pada 30hb ni,sy masih akn toleh blkg kalau2 ada yg dtg smbut tgn sy n pergi dgn sy.  Sebab lepas tarikh tu..sy bkan faizul fahmi yg dlu. Dan sy tkkan menyesal..
To AN, 04:39:53am, 28/11/2011

·         Sy nak ade awak..brdiri at sisi awk ble awk ade mslh..
AN, 04:20:55am, 28/11/2011

·         Bby cintakan b,sayang..hnye b..
AN, 11:02:27pm, 27/11/2011

·         Bby cintakan b,sayang..hnye b..
AN, 11:02:08pm, 27/11/2011

·         Bby cintakan b,sayang..hnye b..
AN, 11:01:53pm, 27/11/2011

·         Bby cintakan b,sayang..hnye b..
AN, 11:01:39pm, 27/11/2011

·         Bby cintakan b,sayang..hnye b..
AN, 11:01:14pm, 27/11/2011

·         Bby cintakan b,sayang..hnye b..
AN, 11:00:56pm, 27/11/2011

·         Bby cintakan b,sayang..hnye b..
AN, 11:00:49pm, 27/11/2011

·         Bby cintakan b,sayang..hnye b..
AN, 11:00:28pm, 27/11/2011

·         Bby cintakan b,sayang..hnye b..
AN, 11:00:07pm, 27/11/2011

·         By tgk bntang td..by lak rase sebak ble awan lindungi bntang2 tu..
AN, 10:51:31pm, 27/11/2011

·         Bby cintakan b..sangatsangat..
AN, 09:31:00pm, 27/11/2011

·         Sy tak plih dy jd suami sy!
AN, 09:05:09pm, 27/11/2011

·         Orang yg sy cnta boleh hdup tnpe sy..dia kuad..dia matang..dia bolwh jge cnta sy..dia mampu tnpa sy..sy brani tinggalkan dia sbb sy tau dia mampu..tp sy taktau dia maseh tggu sy utk kdtgn sy smule akn dtg,,serah sume pd Allah..sy cinta dia slmenye..wslm,syg..
AN, 09:33:40am, 27/11/2011

·         Dan awk kelu tak terkata. Bila sy denga 2taun,sy kecewa..smpai macmtu skali awk fikirkan dia..awk tk trfikir lgsg apa yg sy rasa..skrg sy taw..dilemma awk bkn hnya sama ada cnta sy dan sifat sq..tp awk jgk sygkn dia n susah nk lepaskan dia..hujan mlm ni memang fhm prsaan sy..wlaupn sy mndongak lyn bintang n bunyi cgkerik, dia tetap trun pujuk hati sy..alhmdlah,at least ada yg fhm apa yg sy rasa..jgn risau,sy pn tknal call awk dgn kdaan sy cmni..nyte..
To AN, 09:36:49pm, 26/11/2011

·         Sy bukan bdoh psl walltowall tu sy nk jdikan isu.2tahun awk ingt masa yg pndek? Apa awk fkir bnda bole stel lpas 2taun? Dan awk akn fikir apa sy rasa selama 2tahun tu AN ? Awk pnah letak diri awk kt tmpt sy? Bygkan pn sakit apa lg reality la AN…
To AN, 09:25:43pm, 26/11/2011

·         Hm..26 February 1994..
To AN, 01:04:43am, 26/11/2011

·         Ow.yke..hehs.tua 2 taun dri fathin arissa b la..kot..b tak bpe ingat taun ni dia tadika ke drjah 1 -.-
To AN, 12:58:13am, 26/11/2011

·         Haha..tak pyah sory sgt la d***mon.ha.tkpela..by wish kn la utk b k..ckp dgn dia,happy bsday..jd budak baik..
To AN, 12:52:59am, 26/11/2011

·         Hm..kalau bole sy nk tdo..n bgun hnya bila 2hb..
To AN, 10:08:49pm, 25/11/2011

·         Hm..jgn lupa lg lepas nh..silap2 b pn bby lupa lpas nh..ha
To AN, 09:45:53am, 25/11/2011

·         Hm..okay..eh.tutop mulut n idung dgn kain! Jgn awk lupa lg..
To AN, 09:42:20am, 25/11/2011

·         Haha.ngade..lyn by mcm baby la mlm nh..peluk bby.pok2 pastu nyanyi lagu brney smpai by tdo..:D
To AN, 11:29:25pm, 24/11/2011

·         Sy teringat janji awk tntang bntang.sy tringat doa sy pd Tuhan,forward kt membe2 mntak aminkan.sy teringat ayh tnya pd sy,sape ad****?sy tringat mkck awk tarik tgn tolak salam smbil ckp,”ish.bukan muhrim..kena jaga tu”. Trsnyum ingt gaya muka dia.sy tringat prmintaan awk.sy tringat “monyet” kt restoran haritu.sy teringat..impian sy mmperisterikan awk.sy harap inilah kali trakhir sy mnangis ingtkan smua nh.at least,ingatan last nh selamatkan 1nyawa yg prnah jd kwn rpt sy 5tahun dulu..maaf n halalkn sgalanya. Sy cintakan awk. ANAZ..
To AN, 09:16:18pm, 21/11/2011

·         Tunggu Allah tarik nyawa aku baru aku berhenti. Aku tak tipu.kalau dia pergi dari aku, jangan terkejut neraka adalah tempat aku untuk selamanya.sebaris dengan orang kafir.
Sq, 01:34:54am, 13/11/2011









Human beings' hearts change. That;s their specialty. Forever? There's no such thing. Love, then hate. Hot, then cold. Upset, then grateful. Full of resentment, then understanding. And others, and so on. - 49days








Friday, December 9, 2011

Examination is over

     Alhamdulillah. At last!! Final exam habis sudah... Ceh ayat macam struggle habis padahal 2jam lagi nak exam baru nak study. hahha. Parents aku tahu ni mampos kena bebel -.- but aku macam confident jawab exam coz alhamdulillah dalam 2jam aku study tu masuk dalam kepalahotak and dapat je paper aku terus tulis semua kat page belakang question paper. Function kan? haha. Confident je lebih. So exam dah habis, cuti pun dah start. Plan nak spend new year kat langkawi macam function je. Ajim ajak, so tengoklah macam mana. The thing yang aku malas bila cuti semester ni is kena pack semua barang. Hasss tidak malas dohh! -.- Whatever it is, i'm going back to jb again. Can't wait for tomorrow ;)

Muka acahacah je confident nak exam padahal baru nak study -.-

...and tengahtengah study tetiba je ada blog updates yang annoy me so much. I tried so many times to unfollow her blog but apa bangang ntah tak bolehboleh sampai sekarang. Lastlast aku hide je blog update dia.hehs. By that time bole pulak qis called me and aku terlepas segala kata marah aku pada blogspot-.- kat dia. Lastly she said, its okay...and she reminds a song she used to hear.."Ya Sudahlah" n it makes me smile and hum the song..thanks my dear :)








Sunday, December 4, 2011

Final Semester 3

Ya Allah.. Its already 1.30a.m. Tomorrow is a big examination day but i still can't study. The worst part in my life. The worst ever. Being dumb and dumber, day by day. Trying to be strong and ego as i used to be, in the end its never than a pretending. pretending. and pretending. Giving all the love to someone is the thing that we as a "makhluk" shouldn't do. It is because our most love is belong to the Creator and insyAllah we would never expect the beautiful love from another "makhluk". It is what Abg Zali told me. To fully believe her oath and promise is my biggest mistake. Even if i used to leave u before, but i didn't left u with any of my promises like u did. Blaming each other will be endless story. So cut it out and enjoy your life peacefully, i guess. Will you? After all the promises, will u live in peace? hehs. None of my business. Even though i am undergoing the worst part in my life so far, 4years of your hardwork to give this kind of result, it just make me more matured and thanks for the lesson. Seriously. and thanks to Abg Zali, Boy, the solehah Zie :D and especially Ros Qistina :) Chongmal kamsamnida..Ok jom study ^^



haha ~






Saturday, December 3, 2011

pergi..

" Sy dah bersumpah cinta sy at awk smpai ble2 fahmi.. Awk tggu sy taw.. :) "


masihkah kau simpan
mawar yang ku beri
mungkin tak sewangi dulu
mungkin tak seindah dulu
tunggu aku ku akan datang

masihkah kau jaga
api cinta dariku
mungkin tak sehangat dulu
mungkin tak seterang dulu
tunggu aku ku akan datang
tunggu aku ku akan pulang
tunggu aku ku akan datana
tunggu aku ku akan pulang

kau segalanya bagiku
kau adalah duniaku
satu yang ku pinta
untuk tetap menunggu



"Janji sumpah mainan kau. 4 tahun cerita kita lakar, kenapa sekarang baru kau berubah. 2 tahun kau mintak aku tunggu, 2 hari kau jumpa dia hati kau dah berubah. Aku tak bodoh. Aku tak menyesal. Aku tahu ada hikmah. Aku tak dendam. Aku tahu dendam tak kemana. dan aku tahu, cinta yang pernah aku bagi, tak pernah ada pada siapasiapa 19tahun aku hidup..Aku halalkan semuanya. Aku maafkan semuanya. Aku harap kau pun sama. dan aku harap kau tak muncul dalam hidup aku lagi...

terima kasih. terima kasih, cinta.."











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